story of life.. from the seat of a bike... ver. 2.

its 10 in the morning and i'm still sleepy. i still cannot get over the loss of the long entry i've written last night. and the fact that i am dissapointed with my result. i've never felt worse in all of these 4 semesters. coz i worked my ass for it, even during the last weeks before the exam, we were packed with tests, final reports and quizzes.

that's when i decided : i need a break. coz i broke down so many times during the finals. and mom never showed she cared like she did during the last weeks of semester. i was really depressed and i think if i was a pc, my RAM would surely burnt to nonsense.

i need to work harder next semester. coz this is just too much and with my cgpa now, i won't be able to continue for degree in kutkm. bah, who cares? i'm not going to stay there anyway. i'm going off malacca. tak berkembang langsung. i need to go some place else. where i'm withing new surroundings, new people. work you ass then, girl!

i'm changing little by little coz i am not what i am now when i was in school. college life taught me a lot and mature me. i like what i am now. but i have nothing to boast all of these gonna be 20 life. feel wasted, all the time but doing nothing to do it good. i guess, messing with time was a really bad idea. coz time flew, not just walk away.

what if i did take the 'other' option? i think i wouldn't be here now, i'd be so faraway from here. i won't know the people i know today. i may be a different person. a little nerdie i guess? *lol* life is about making the right decisions and picking out the choices.

coz mom did tell her hopes if i did make the other option. sorry mom! this is meant to be a lesson for me. that life is a full cycle. once you're up, get ready to be down in no time. this is what awaits me when i chose this path. and, no regrets coz i learnt the hardness of life, taking life in different ways, looking at life from different views. i guess that's the most precious lesson i'll never get in any formal schooling anywhere.

and this blog had been a blessing. reading it in future time will surely made me laugh at my immature views and how i've grown up. just want to make sure that one day when i read this again, i can succeed with this path of mine, that i am the envy of my peers of my success and that i enjoy living and life isn't that cruel to me anymore.

smileys for today. can you guess who? fancy they didn't do the goatee on rob (first smiley, far left)