of moon and stars

just woke-up from sleep an hour ago. it's 4 in the morning. got reports to write. didn't i tell that i am such a bad procrastinator (if this word ever exist hehe!)?

spent half an hour in the toilet just now. doing nothing but some thinking. coz i called khaleel last night. yeah, i promised myself i won't call him but i don't want it to be that obvious that i'm avoiding him. he seemed happy to hear me and i admit he cared with those how you've been questions he asked. to tell you the truth, since i knew of the fling between him and syam, i hated him. why? coz i feel wasted. everything is.

i'm not acting like a kid with this hating thingy going on. but let's just let time heals the wound. and i've never been the actress like i did when i called, i deserved an award. coz i know that he knew i was cold even though i was laughing. plastic i called it. whatever it is, he's still my friend and the point there was, i was just asking about his well-being. the main point of calling. :p and i need to know somebody to help me with micro-p projects next sem hehe.

i was looking for something to eat (boiled some maggi at last), when i noticed the excessive lighting at the transparent roof. i thought it was the flourescent lamp, so i turned it off, and voila! my suspicions were confirmed. it was the full moon.

as i went out to take my log-book in the car, i just stood behind the car and gaze. spent the 5 minutes in silence (it was 3 sumthing and it was silent, duh!). the view was beautiful. the moon itself. breathtaking beauty.

and suddenly, i noticed a bright star. very bright. i used to say that the moon is khaleel and the bright star is me. i could see the star whenever i see the moon vice versa. of all these months the star and the moon stayed very close. but not tonight. the star was way downfall while the moon stood majestically up in the sky. just like me and khaleel now. and it was the star that shied off away.

another second of gazing and the clouds overtook the magnificent moon. hm....

omar was complaining about my previous entry of me talking geek at friendster. had to do it proper he said. i forgot to remind him of my blog header title, that this was all crap. and adding the fact that i was feeling crappy that day. i know it sucks. and with this mess (err, i purposedly messed up the coding). i actually want to change to a new skin. browsed around but haven't figured which one i liked.

i watched 50 first dates yesterday, 04.04.04, 4th of April 2004, in gsc cineplex 4, seat A4. now how nice? hehe. looking from chinese outlook, bad omen. 4 means death. aiyoo, so many 4's haha!

i talked to shakir online just now. he had to log out. missed him a lot. oi dude, i missed you!

alamak. report!