why?

- i don't tell everything here.
"coz some things are precious. that's why it's better kept private"


- i love warehouse sales and shopping.
"coz warehouse sales equals to many many many times shopping, which is retail therapy that contributes to my well-being, maybe not my pocket's well-being though"


- i love food and can't seem to stop from spoiling myself with good food.
"good food contributes to well-being. i can't seem to function properly if i keep thinking about syurga atas pinggan and not eating it. sorry, i'm not sharing it. try japanese soba in s3cret recip3, you'll know what i mean"


- i chose to be happy instead of complaining.
"i don't intend to put people into my shoes. i am happy as i am and be content that i'm actually listening to your complaints and not make a face. i may not be a good friend, but you know i'll be there whenever you need a listener"


- i am writing this crap.
"to better understand myself of which some people failed to and whom i don't bother if they do or don't understand me. my writings are my self-reflection of whatever i think and feel, it might not suit you, and like who cares?"


keahlian kelab bakar duit

* segala pembakaran duit yang disengajakan adalah kemasukan secara automatik sebagai ahli kelab bakar duit.

the lemon chronicles

encik lemon: you've got this kind of colours set up already right?

me: yes. this is the same with the one i have.

encik lemon: i want you to change this particular one to this colour, alright?

me: oh, it's purple.

encik lemon: it's fuchsia.

me: (dumbfounded)


on another occasion, on colours again.

encik lemon: see, you've got this colour wrong. you have to set this one to other colours. the breaks are fine, stays at what colour is that???

me: err...turquoise

encik lemon: aquamarine, yea that's the colour.

me: (dumbfounded, again)


encik lemon knows more about colours than i do? sheeessshhh!!!! this came from someone who wears a pink shirt on friday.

it's not pink you see, it's soft pink, he'd say or some sorts.


only encik lemon could make my day go bonkers with arguments on colours.

After bakar duit

in the room.

him: what happened to you?

me: see. the bugs are not being nice to me.

him: how long has this happened?

me: two weeks ago.

him: look at those scratches.

me: what do you expect? the itch bitched like hell.

him: no choice. you'll have to berpantang and i have to give you an injection.

me: the WHAT??? isn't there any other way?

him: anyone picking you up?

me: no, i came by bus.

him: ok maybe no injection. but you'll have to adhere to this list.

(a veryyyyyy long list)

me: what? no nasi lemak?

him: oh yes, and all of those other food. please restrain yourself from eating them for one month?

me: no nasi lemak for one month??? i may die. please not nasi lemak.

him: (definitely ignoring me) ok, that's it.

.... and i got out of the room thinking of how am i going to live without nasi lemak.

suddenly,

him: i changed my mind. you really need that injection.

me: the WHAT?? i thought i got away with it.

him: it won't hurt, like an ant's bite.

me: what kind of ant?

him: the red ant.

me: dang!


a sore pocket contributes to fasting since i bakar so much. but i guess after a sore butt, i might need less effort to fasting since this tak boleh makan, that tak boleh makan.

i am getting thin, from not eating the food i love. no nasi lemak for one month. huwargh!

an sms:

"kak, jom pegi makan charkoayteow"

i replied:

"huhu, aku pantang seafood doh"

the reply:

"haha, oh lupe. bulan 7 ler baru dapat makan charkoayteow"

chist dan chist lagi.

surat kepada lecturer kks

ke hadapan lecturer kks yang diingati selalu,

apa khabar cik? harapnye cik sihat di samping student2 yg selalu menjadi mangsa pertanyaan cik supaya cik boleh faham tujuan lab itu dan student dapat markah lebih dan tidak perlu berjumpa cik lagi untuk sem depan.

tujuan saya menulis ini adalah untuk memberitahu cik tentang aktiviti saya dan kawan baik cik pada hari ini.

aktiviti kami bermula sejak khamis lepas, apabila saya telah menerima pemberitahuan warehouse sale jenama cl4rks dan juga sale b0dyshop. saya tidak dapat memberitahu cik tentang sale ini kerana memahami keadaan pokok duit2 cik yang baru ditanam dan masih belum dapat dituai.

saya telah pergi ke plaza al4m s3ntral dan mendapati tiada bodyshop di situ tetapi ada warehouse sale c0mma. dengan tanpa rasa bersalah dan tidak memikirkan keadaan tenat poket di hujung2 bulan, saya telah membakar untuk baju c0mma. tetapi saya menyesal sekarang kerana saya lupa bahawa saya takkan mungkin muat free size melainkan jenis stretchable. keghairahan saya membakar duit telah menyebabkan saya lupa, saya masih lagi gemuk.

aktiviti pembakaran diteruskan di sunw4y pyr4mid pula. berhimpit-himpit di dalam b0dyshop tidak menghalang keinginan saya untuk terus membakar. cik, bagaimana menahan diri sedangkan saya sebagai member mendapat 10% tambahan diskaun di samping diskaun yang ditawarkan. maaf cik, saya kalah pada godaan lipgloss yang berwarna-warni.

saya ternampak pula v0ir, dan saya teringat saya masih perlu mengganti sandal ala espadrille yang telah dihartapunyakan oleh adik saya. yang pertama dicuba, hanya tinggal saiz 8, dan ianya longgar. cik, saya telah merasa putus-asa dan berkata aktiviti pembakaran telah terhenti. tetapi saya telah ternampak satu sandal lain yang menarik. maaf cik, ia ada saiz 7 dan walaupun ia lebih mahal dari yang pertama, saya terus membakar tanpa rasa ragu dan was-was.

saya meneruskan perjalanan ke f.0.s dan telah memilih beberapa baju. tetapi saya telah mendapat amaran dan pekikan kuat dari poket saya yang terlalu marah kerana ia telah kering-kontang dan tiada pembakaran dapat dilakukan. saya terselamat dari membakar di sini kerana tiada lagi kertas yang dapat dibakar.

saya juga mendapat perkhabaran dari kawan baik cik bahawa beliau telah pergi ke cl4rks dan tiada berkenan dengan kasut yang ditawarkan. beliau telah terselamat dari membakar duit.

saya berasa cemburu kepada cik kerana cik tidak terdedah kepada godaan wareh0use sale dan juga jualan mur4h sepertimana cik juga cemburu kepada kami yang senantiasa dapat pergi membakar duit di wareh0use sale. percayalah cik, cik sangat beruntung!

saya semakin sibuk sekarang, dengan kerja dan aktiviti membakar duit yang nampaknya semakin rancak. saya semakin takut menghadapi bulan hadapan kerana meg4sale yang telah ditukar nama akan bermula.

nampaknya tulisan saya setakat ini. moga cik sentiasa dirahmati dan selalu jaga diri.
sekian. terima kasih.

"saya yang menurut perintah dan godaan warehouse sale dan jualan murah"

eine
presiden kelab bakar duit

perkara yang tidak difahami

satu:

kebaya pendek jarang yang dipakai bersama tube. kain belah kiri dan kanan. betis dan sebahagian dada terdedah.

aku tak faham kenapa dia pakai tudung bersama kebaya itu. takpe la, takde dosa rambut dan leher.


dua:

bila amik order, aku beriya-iya speaking english walaupun budak yang amik order tu terang-terang melayu dan cakap melayu dengan aku. tetiba kawan aku call, dok berdekah-dekah ketawa dan cakap melayu. bengang je budak tu tengok aku.

aku tak faham kenapa bila masuk tempat yang ade cukai perkhidmatan, aku akan automatik rasa poyo giler nak speaking english. bile lagi nak praktik ye tak?


tiga:

dalam masa tiga minggu ni, aku hanya makan nasi kurang 5 kali. dan tengahari tadi adalah yang terakhir.

aku tak faham kenapa jenis kuat makan cam aku ni bleh pandang nasi tadi macam baru pertama kali makan nasi. tapi bukan macam dah kebulur sangat. lebih kepada pandangan pelik, dan buat pertama kali nya dalam sejarah aku makan nasi pada waktu tengahari lebih dari 20 minit. nak kunyah pun rasa pelik.

aku pun tak faham kenapa, sedangkan makanan ruji seumur hidup adalah nasi, tak makan nasi selama 3 minggu, terus lupa betapa sedapnya nasi itu.


empat:

aku tak faham kenapa tak makan nasi 3 minggu dan aku masih lagi gemuk. oh, berhempas pulas tak makan nasi untuk 3 minggu, aku telah menghancurlumatkan impian itu dengan mengorder dan memakan syurga di atas pinggan.


lima:

encik lemon suka suruh aku buat macam-macam. encik lemon nak semua cepat. encik lemon suka suruh buat kerja-kerja pelik. encik lemon suka marah-marah.

aku tak suka encik lemon bising-bising. aku selalu bengang encik lemon suruh aku cepat-cepat. aku geram encik lemon bagi senarai panjang-panjang dan cakap laju-laju sampai aku tak faham encik lemon cakap apa.

aku tak faham kenapa bila encik lemon senyum, aku terus jadi lupa kesadisan dan kekejaman dia. aku tak faham kenapa aku rasa cair bila mood encik lemon baik dan terserempak dengan aku, die akan senyum pemadam ingatan aku terhadap kesadisan dia dan mengucapkan hai hawau yuu. walaupun encik lemon buat begitu terhadap semua perempuan bila mood die baik, yang mana selalunya mood die tak baik.


enam:

aku tak faham kenapa aku sangat happy bila aku bizi. maaf, mungkin sudah terlalu lama aku underworked and overpaid.


tujuh:

bff aku demam teruk. aku sangat faham kenapa aku rasa nak terbang je jenguk dia walaupun time tu dah 10 malam. ye, aku sangat faham.

Syurga di atas pinggan

Tak yah cerita. Sangat bahagia, ngap! Dapatkn di secr3t recip3 berhampiran anda.

Aku pegi bakar duit. Lagi. Di tengah2 bulan ini.

Bizi. Sangat suka. Sebab tu gi bakar duit.

starstruck, lagi!

the weekend started with something sober.

the middle was joyous, meeting up 2 friends. i had so much fun. like serious fun!!

then, i met the drummer. the highest point of my weekend.

i met the drummer at the j0b fair at p w t c. he was with friends. and no andy. gile andy nak datang tempat ramai gile tu, sure kene serbu punya. dan aku pun dengan aman bahagia pergi tegur dino yang tiada siapa perasan. aku amik gambar pun, orang ingat amik gambar dengan kawan lama. hahaha.

kepada orang yang tengah gilakan awek hartamas, thanks for the company. really appreciate it, man.

to my bff, thanks for the rock. i gave you paper in exchange. the only stuff left is the scissors. =P

toodles, nak tido.

Guess who?

hint: dia adalah seorang drummer dari 3 beradik drummer yang terkenal di mesia. dan dia yang paling ensem. =P

Kepada orang yg berkenaan, Jangan jeles. Haha.

Aku jumpe idol aku. Happy!

unknown entry

i don't remember how we met. but we know the same circle of friends. i was struck by the many 1's in the nick. and the weirdness of it.

we seldom get to talk, though we might get to once in a while. i like the sound of it.

we lost contact after that. years after, i stumbled upon you. we were reunited. and we even promised a get-together.

i liked your passion of food. i've never seen anyone describe food like you did.

maybe our paths crossed so that i'll be able to learn about it. i thank you for the wonderful gift you presented me, and your friendship.




may Allah bless you, always.

the 300th post!

yea, i know it's nothing to brag or celebrate about since a long-time blogger like me should've reached that number waaaaaaayyy long before. but what the heck? who cares anyway? so, this is to my 300th post. may i have the sanity to write frequently here. adios.

my favourite foodstuff. other people may scoff or even scream yuck at my weird taste for some kind of food. for instance, during the prosper1ty burger promo at mekdi, the set was served with jasmine tea. while others hate the weird smell, i adore its thirst-quenching fab.

natto is a gooey, weird japanese fermented soy-beans eaten stirred forcefully with rice. i admit i might not have the ability to turn a blind eye over the goo, but the dried version offered a relief. it's salty, like eating very the bacin tempe. i hope you get the idea of it. tasty though it is.

granola, muesli. baked combination of rolled oats, wheatgerm, and all other sorts of grain kept together with maple syrup or honey. great for quick lunches when sleep is more important than everything else during lunchbreaks. yum.

wheatgrass drink. another weird green colour drink that screams chlorophyll. 'nuff said.

i love baked beans. i can eat it straight from the can. that's how grossly i love it. i also eat anything with wheat on it. but no, i don't eat tempoyak or anything that utilizes it in. even anything with durian in it. but pulut with kuah durian is HEAVEN!

people sometimes frown at my choice of food. i pile-up veggies on my rice. i just can't live without veggies. if i had to choose between mister depp and mister jackman or veggies, i'd still choose the misters. you think i'd be choosing them veggies? i'll have the misters and ask them to buy tons of veggies for me. so, 2 birds and loads of veggies with one stone. geddit?

in other words, i eat healthy stuffs as much as i eat the unhealthy ones. so, i guess that's why my diet plan has gone nowhere.

enteng tapi sangat sukar

saat entry ni ditaip, kipas berputar pada kelajuan 4, tingkap terbukak dengan angin malam.

dan aku memang confirm demam!

kepala tengah sakit. kaki walaupun cam agak sakit nak jalan, tapi cam ok lagi la.

kepada mereka yang gila kasut, belilah kasut yang selamat untuk dipakai supaya anda tidak memalukan diri sendiri di tengah-tengah lautan manusia.

istilah selamat:

- kalo heels, pastikan yang branded cam semb0nia ke, cl4rks ke, hushpups ke supaya apabila anda mengejar bas atau lrt, tumitnya tidak hancur seperti yang telah terjadi kepada diriku.

- kalo yang flat, pastikan bukan jenis open-toe kerana kl adalah tempat yang hujan suka-suki. open-toe adalah tidak digalakkan kerana kasut berpeluang menjadi kapal yang berair. risiko rosak kasut dan rosak kuku kaki adalah sangat tinggi.

- begitu juga dengan sandal. pastikan ada tali di belakang yang boleh menghalang arus deras dan banjir kilat dari menghanyutkan kasut di kaki anda sewaktu anda mengharungnya.

kejadian semalam adalah alasan dan tiket grandstand untuk aku pergi beli kasut di min3s. sebab kat situ ade satu kedai yang jual stok boots yang aku berkenan. bukan boots cam dinner hari tu oke? ni stok ankle-length boots yang sesuai dipakai pergi kerja. selamat, dan bertapak lebar. kurang risiko untuk terpelecok.

smashings untuk aku yang kurang berminat jadi cekgu tapi nak sambung lagi belajar:

him: kadang2 pelik tgk you people
him: korang sibuk nak blajar, blajar, blajar
him: ngajar pun tidak
him: contribute ke dunia pun tidak
him: what sort of person would it help mould u to be?
him: and finally, with that masters' degree, how are you going to change the world?

aku tak bleh nak counter attack die. sebab memang betul pun apa yang die cakap. maybe i'm in it for personal gain. hmm, :'(

tiring day

pepagi dah buat aku hangin. remote yang bapak besar tu bleh hilang. display jadi standby mode, takde remote cam ne aku nak on balik. dan aku yang sengal dan menghabiskan 6tahun belajar elektronik tapi masih bengap lagi menghabiskan 1 jam lebih, memikirkan cemane nak on balik tanpa remote. guna softmode tak bleh sebab die dah standby. aku tak berani nak memandai sebab barang mahal weh. di seluruh bangunan, yang tau pasal display hanya 4 orang termasuk aku. lagi 3 orang kerja malam. takkan la aku nak call diorang sedangkan aku tak buat pape resolution lagi.

aku sangat bernasib baik sebab display yang standby mode tu, berada dalam keadaan yang bleh dicapai tanpa menggunakan tangga. aku tekan-tekan manual power button pun tak boleh. pernah ke korang tengok mane-mane jenis display, power button die kat belakang? aku tak penah la kan, so jakun la sikit. 10 kali tekan pun display on sekejap je, lagi la aku hangin. aku try la tekan 2 kali, kot-kot jadi, mende canggih ni kadang-kadang cara nak on pun canggih. hahaha. pun tak boleh. aku resort pada benda yang biasanya berkesan pada tibi biasa: shutdown power. aku tawakal habis la sebab display mahal ni sensitip macam projektor gak.

aku shutdown satu display dulu. kurang-kurang kalo rosak pun, satu je rosak dulu. haha. aku kira sampai 15, pastu aku turn on power. aku tengok lampu die dah bukan kelip-kelip merah dah, dah jadi oren, petanda baik nih. aku terus tekan power button. dup dap jantung aku. dan display tu elok je cam takde pape. aku rase nak lesing, buat aku cuak je.

so, aku dah tau le nak buat ape kalo display merajuk lagi cam pagi tadi.

balik petang tadi aku dah teringat benda yang aku nak beli kat pasar malam. hari ni pakai heels yang dah hilang tumit nye, kire nye dah macam kasut flat laa. elok je aku turun mata tangga terakhir, aku tak tau la apa yang terjadi, sebab tibe-tibe je aku :

" opocot, mak kau! "

ye, aku telah terpelecok dengan kasut yang ala-ala flat itu. terpelecok yang sakitnya buat aku terdiam dan air mata rase nak meleleh sebab sangat sakit. kalo dalam keadaan aku sorang dan bukan tetengah orang yang berpusu-pusu ramainya, aku dah melalak-lalak dah. serius, aku tak penah rase sakit terpelecok sampai macam tu, even dengan kasut yang lagi tinggi.

dan skang nih, aku dah rase nak demam, demam terpelecok. kaki dah macam terseliuh. yang lawak nye tu, bile aku jalan kat pasar malam, aku bleh ketawa-ketawa teringat aku melatah dengan insiden terpelecok tu. adoi la. kelakar betul hidup aku hari ni.

p/s: aku ada broadband kat umah skang. so, entry aku pasni tak semestinya ofis hours lagi.

smile, even when the world is not as pretty as the heavens

i am feeling neurotic. my diet has gone to the trash. i miss my veggies. i love to sleep.

i spent my boring, uneventful weekend except for 2 consecutive weddings, watching a f 7. yes people, i do watch that show.

after driving in the awful heat (hometown is grill-me-done-town) in my darling vic, my bff came over and we caught up with lots of things. she even ditched her future hubby in place of talking ourselves hoarse.

she invited me to their new lair, and i had this thinking:

"kalo aku pegi, mesti aku tak dapat tengok a f "

but i didn't go. these days i have this weird habit of staying indoors, curling up with a cuppa and my flood of books.

after a few hours, i thought it over and felt this:

" what the heck? having that kind of thought, like i am an adoring fan of the show. fancy missing an outing with my bff and eating my fave food for THAT? oh gosh, i am getting sappy for no reason at all. chist dan chist lagi. "

fortunately, the line-up weren't disappointing. they performed very well, except for that dark frizz-haired male, i wonder why they didn't kick him out yet. even adore one of the performances, he sang mraz's i'm yours.

i blame this on my flatmates, poisoning me to watch the diary every night. i am getting lazy to write these days, but i'll try to sneak in a word or two. maybe more. =p

cerita kelakar hari ini

encik lemon: i live on the top floor. nice view over there.

kawan encik lemon: i see. i'm not quite fond of heights. as long as i'm not near some place with an open balcony that i can jump off, i'll be fine i guess.

aku di kejauhan yang terdengar, gelak guling2.


a helluva week. i didn't know what really happened, but sleepless nights. it passed with such a velocity that everything were just a single line of blur. it's time to sort out my feelings, my life.

i don't ask for much, but i demand for a lot. priority is best done with resources available. make do with whatever at hand, and it really helps if you are or have access to jack of all trades.


him: you chose to be happy, instead of complaining like me and everybody else.

you only get one shot at life. either you make the best of it and die trying or you can just sulk and wonder why life is unfair. regrets are means of slowing down. i don't intend to slow down. why?

kerana mati itu makin dekat setiap saat kita bernafas.

When all else fail

I'm feelin dizzy, n0t kn0win why i'm in this state. Not even the drink in d picture c0uld make me figure out why.

There are a lot of goals m0re, left to achieve. There are still unfulfilled desires. I th0ught i might n0t be ready yet, but there's n0 tellin when will i ever unless a certain fixture is set.

The main argument is, to p0p the questi0n n get it over with. Whether to pr0ceed, or end it, i w0uld be relieved of this big burden.

At least. I hope.