some things just never change

current y! status : the spookiest thing when you stayed alone
thinking of : what really happened last night?

i was cleaning the lobby last night when he crossed my mind. the wave of sadness swept over me of a sudden. but i continued doing my job.

left the store close to 1 am. and i cried right after settling down on my bed. he thought about me when i was thinking of him. and that made me sadder. and things happen between us that made me wanted to scream. the more i hated him, the more i'm hurting. what's happening to me?

i wished you feel this pain
i wished you thrive on this agony
blessed by my feelings for you

lucky there's faziq and my significant other to brighten up my days. if my significant other ever fucked me up again, i don't know how.

he knew he had this kind of effect on me. he knew the right times to push the right buttons. he knew when i needed him. hmmm... too much details.

i thought of this while i was on the way to work

sayang sayang abang
abang cakap abang sayang sayang
jadi sayang kene ikut cakap abang
bukan apa, abang kata
persediaan kalau kita kahwin nanti

abang tak kasi sayang kawan dengan lelaki lain
sayang ikut
apatah lagi keluar berdua
dengan abang je boleh

abang tak kasi simpan nombor telefon lelaki
walaupun mamak jual roti canai punya
sayang angguk
abang suruh sayang masak
sayang cakap tak reti
abang suruh jugak
balun je la megi sayang rebus

abang nak pegang tangan sayang
sayang tak kasi
abang merajuk cakap sayang tak sayang abang
sayang kalah bagi tangan
abang genggam, suka

naik motor berdua
sayang duduk jauh-jauh
abang bising cakap motor tak stabil
bila duduk dekat
abang tarik tangan sayang
peluklah, abang sejuk
sayang peluk abang
sebab kesian abang sejuk menggigil-gigil
tapi lepas tu abang yang sedap
hangat je
sayang pulak terkebil-kebil
tak selesa
tak pe la. sayang sayang abang

apa abang nak
sayang iyakan
semua abang suruh
sayang buat
sebab sayang sayang abang

abang janji abang nak kahwin dengan sayang seorang je
sebab abang sayang sayang
sayang pun sayang abang.

<adegan sayang menyayang hahaha>

dedicated to the 2 bitches. aku tepuk tangan kalo boyfriend korang tinggalkan korang. buat la ape diorang suruh. kata nak jadi girlfriend mithali kan? jasa mak bapak tak terbalas lagi dah nak buat macam-macam untuk boyfriend korang. cakapla aku jealous sebab aku takde boyfriend. pegi la mati. kalo aku ade pun, aku bukan bodoh diperkotak-katikkan macam korang. nak suruh itu ini, aku demand ijab dan qabul dulu ye?

zura's leaving for her poly. iskk, i'm gonna miss her. it's been very nice 6months. :D