the years :)

he had this on his ym status:

i am 27 this year but still not driving a scirocco.

i retorted by replying him this:

i am 27 this year but driving a car as old as i am.

hahaha.

on the other hand, i got this cute email from y!

Dear Eine,
Thank you for being a Yahoo! Mail user for the past 9 years.

wow! it has been that long since i started using the dork at the core nick for my email. i have a few mail id prior to that but i guess this one stuck, considering the previous ones were pretty much cheesy and too girly. lol. come to think of it, the nick is as old as izzul.

here's more to the years to come. =)

oh the irony

i was naive.

and i broke hearts.

now that i am mature,

i get my heart broken. bad.

it is the same scene,

playing over and over again.

painful encounters

i hate it when i woke up startled in the middle of the night, thinking about something i shouldn't be thinking about.

now i couldn't sleep back.

screw you!

invasion

i hate it when my thoughts are invaded.

by thoughts that are so unnecessary.

coz it made me wanted to puke.

at times, my head was reeling so fast i wish i could just scream to it to shut up and stop.

but, if it really stops and shuts up, i won't have my endless imagination.

imagination so beautiful that it creates optimism.

from then comes hope.

and that kept me going.

for i have so many reasons to live for.

including you.

yea, you, who is reading this.

for someone to be here and read my nonsensical crap, must've been something.

thank you.

and then i don't feel so bad afterall.

smile and be happy, that's the least you can do for yourself =D

kegedikan terhadap aksen

i called to enquire about the services that the place provides:

me: hello. um, company x?

male voice, let's call him k: (corrected me and answered) yea (in a heavy drawl)

me: say, um. (i was stuttering because i forgot the exact service that i wanted to ask) blablabla.

k: oh, i wasn't aware of that. yea, i guess you could.

me: ok, that's good then.

k: which service you're referring to? coz i have 2 companies.

me: uh? (like i care if you have 2 companies, duh) this and that, i couldn't really remember.

k: ah, that must be it. friday?

me: no, saturday.

k: yea, i guess you can come then, on that day. may i know your name, please?

me: it's eine.

k: oh, so you're malay. i'm malay too.

me: you don't sound like one. do i sound like one?

k: in the beginning, yea.

me: LOL.


this guy drove me nuts with his pronunciation of saturday. but he sounds cute with the accent. LOL.

girlfriends, let's meet k! mode gedik ON. :P

my favourite nomad

Me: i just asked someone a really dumb question
him: what was that?
Me: i asked her: " which year were you born? " " 1985 ",
Me: " single? "
him: rofl
Me: like omg, of all questions, i should blurt that question out
him: r u thinking of switching sides.....rofl
him: rofl
him: rofl
him: rofl
him: rofl
Me: sila guling atas lantai skang
Me: hahahaha
him: rofl
him: What were u thinking??
Me: i wasn't thinking, lol
Me: it just came out
him: rofl
him: no harm done right???? rofl
Me: i got that quizzical look and raised eyebrow
him: rofl
him: U've defined the term "WHAT A DAY!!!"
him: rofl
Me: so much for trying to do something good
Me: hahaha
him: lol
him: Now what good did that bring???? rofl
Me: at least i made you laugh, at the cost of making the fool out of myself
Me: rofl
him: Yeah... Coming from u...... it's priceless rofl
Me: thank you, that made my day brighter hahahaha
him: lol

sensible yap

i travel with sole-intention of take-off and touchdown on the metal bird. LOL. ok kidding. i go travelling to see the world, experience the culture, admire the landmarks and architecture yadayada.

but the one that intrigued me the most is the culture. how the people of the nation behave, towards foreigners, the way they drive or queue for the public transport. these kind of things never cease to amaze me.

at times, there are a lot of things that my fellow citizens can learn from them. especially those little things we call courtesy or learning how to line-up to catch the bus.

the viets are stubbornly loyal to their mother-tongue of which i found it hard to move around and ask directions from the locals since most of them don't speak english despite the nation's capital being infested with amerikans. they are also very proud of their heritage as each of the shops' name starts with viet this or viet that. and with these loyalty and determination, they shooed away the amerikans during the war. i dunno whether it was a blessing in disguise or not, but the war destroyed all crocodiles in the mekong river coz of agent orange.

our northern neighbour left me with a lot to ponder. the roads are spacious and in very good condition. no holes whatsoever. you are ensured of a smooth ride even when you're in behind a hundred-year old truck. their internet speed is super-fast, that even when you're wifi-ing, you don't feel the lag at all. proven by my friend's uninterrupted fast picture upload. they are also close to worshipping their king. his picture is almost everywhere. i mean, what's not to respect when your king is one of the best biologists in the country who plants paddy species in the royal courtyard?

while our southern neighbour is very disciplined, their kiasu-ness is epic! everything is so organized and clean that you can't help feeling that you are a robot. programmed to do exactly this and not that. but the winner is definitely the govt-sponsored dating services. first, you're being paid to have babies and now to go on a date? i rest my case. though the local girls look fashionable and dolled-up, i still like the girls in my country, definitely prettier! like a local comedian used to joke about; yes, it was nice when the cabs are punctual, but after a while, it gets boring since it's predictable. true enough.

the garuda land, it is the poverty that tugged at my heart. they do all kinds of jobs, even dangerous ones like stopping speeding cars to make way for other cars. and the pay is meagre depending on the tips. all for the sake of money. the place is also full of demonstrations. and weirdly-shaped buildings. one thing is for sure. no matter their ethnicity, they stand unified as one nation. oh, bandung girls are pretty! LOL.

so, in the wake of the upcoming by-elections, i'm just pondering over the fact that if our neighbouring nations can, why my nation's men can't stand united as one, crossing race, religion and political beliefs boundaries?

darah sama merah.

jika nyawa terkorban, masih disebut manusia.

bukan parti politik mana.

dasar pilih bulu dan sekutu.

saya, islam dahulu!

on a sunday

my entries these days have been mainly about the people i treasured and the conversations i had with them. the point is to keep it here so that on one fine day when life has dealt me a wicked blow, i'd be able to track down and read these beautiful musings and laughs at them the same.

i've wanted to write something that i truly felt, stripping down to the basics, like a bare-it-all session, but i guess even my future self needed to be spared that. less is always more. =)

so to quote what i said to a fren on her blog when she posted an article of not trying too hard to find the perfect one;

you felt that the person is perfect for you, but does he/she felt that you're perfect for him/her?

i'm surrounded by so much love that i am so thankful to the Almighty for this blessing, every single day. just remember for every person who hates you, there will be 10 more person who love you. but it can go vice versa too, LOL.

enjoying life at its best. day. after day. <3

balm for the heart

him: you're the one experiencing all of that. so, it's up to you, nak tergolek ke, nak jatuh ke, nak jerit kuat-kuat ke, nak lompat-lompat ke.

me: nak terjun bangunan bleh?

him: jangan. kawin dulu.

me: what the? HAHAHAHAHA!


love you, bad!

unpretentious

him: nice right. ryan. hearts

me: that's so gay. coming from you. ROFL.

him: lol

me: not busy eh today?

him: not so. why?

me: coz you have time to heart ryan gosling to me. hahaahaha

him: coz he deserves the attention

me: he is he is. from me.

him: eyebrows goes up and down. hot stuff hot stuff

me: and i wonder how many times you'll go watch CSL. hehehe

him: hehe 1 time. maybe

me: i remember you watched L&OD 4 times, coz JG's butt

him: mwahahaha. what movie to watch this month eh?

me: maybe you should watch limitless. BC's in it. unless you wanna watch bieber. hahahaha

him: i watch already, 2 time :P

me: OMG.


one of the most unpretentious guy i know. one of the rare ones who embrace his sexuality openly. and a metro at that too. = )

tak tahu kenapa

Dikala luka terlalu dalam Sungguhpun masih tak terpadam Hingga terkadang aku berdendam Kau tetap setia Walau jauh berlari Walau jenuh ku mencari Tetap sungguh kau kemari Tanpa jemu dan benci Biar ku telan tangismu Biar ku simpan resahmu Meski kau bukan milikku Teguhkan dihatiku Percayalah.. Kau Inderaloka.. Kan ku susuri Bahagia mu teman di taman ini.. tetiba rase lagu ni sangat relevan. =)

honesty

me: i might be flirting like all the time, but i don't get into relationships that easily, i break hearts along the way.

him: will you break mine?

me: eh? is there more parts of your heart to be broken?

him: *sits in one corner and sulks*

me: rofl!


good friends are beyond words. life is too precious to be spent to be thinking of that one person who doesn't appreciate you.

it is definitely worthwhile to be with those who'll stick with you through fat and thin. and most importantly, the people who love you, the way you are, no matter how annoying and obnoxious you may be.

this entry is dedicated to my ensem bois (you get the credit for putting up with me, :P ), my phat girlfriends ( for entertaining my gastronomic quests and for being the best things in my life ), and my beautiful family for being the reason of my sanity.

love you guys to death. with all the love in the world. *mwahx*

musings

on a slow boring day:

him: to you, boys come and go?

me: frankly speaking, i have too many bois in my life to miss those who left. yes, i may sound like berlagak, but those who stayed are my sworn friends for life.

him: suddenly i felt like a tiny dot in the far far corner of the big picture.

me: be thankful that you're at least in the picture. LOL.

him: that's true to some extent. hahaha.


i am a serial flirt. i am a sworn heartbreaker. i guess it's in me all along. but i'm not cheap. i know what i want, and i work for what i want, and i make sure i get what i want. it's just the problem of figuring if what i want is really what i need. like those comfortable deliciously, heartbreakingly expensive hush pups shoes.

jake, i need my edward dose. soon enough, babe.

reminiscence

my takes on some of life's issues surprise me sometimes. i mean being 16 (ecehhh) but have to deal with a lot of decisions and mature stuffs really are something that i don't look forward to, it sounded so adult.

i don't remember what happened when i was 16, there must be some major event happened that made me stuck at 16 forever. wondering if this is the case of the lost youth. i seem to miss those youthfulness.

of going to school.
of doing homework.
of enjoying life, with friends without worrying about bills to pay.

i sacrificed my weekends, my youthfulness, for money.

even now, i'm slaving away for money.

it made sense that i like working hard for money. though i'd want to be a soccermom some day, it gives me great satisfaction that i am able to buy the things i want with the money i worked so hard for, even though it was not immediate.

i am so messed up. but i know that reading His love letters will soothe me. i seek His guidance and blessings. :)

perks

a conversation on a weekend night;

him: tak layan af ke?

me: kalo af tu makanan, atau nama pendek seorang lelaki yg ensem, mesti i layan tanpa was was.

him: lol!

seriously, i miss my bois, dearly. cepatla cuti sem.

most elitegible bachelor

i bought the cl3o magazine this month because of the delicious hunks. including shah3izy sam, hehe.

i was browsing the aisle for my weekly calcium dose when bsb's i want it th4t way came on air.

i instinctively was bobbing my head left and right, and unconsciously tapping my feet as well as silently singing, when suddenly:

" eh, akak suke lagu ni, siap menari-nari lagi "

i was blushing beetroot and giggling excessively. hahahaha, i never thought people'd notice AND spoke aloud.

they were the staffs there. and finally,

" ala, dah habis la kak. datang lagi esok ye. esok konfem ade lagi lagu ni "

i was laughing by then and walked away. malu wey.

speaking of bachelor, i'm dreaming of all sorts of guys. terasa gila, but hey, it's not wrong having a diminutive imagination, well, a bit on the wild side. like having tall and handsome in one person is quite rare, if you get what i mean. :P

Solitude

Lo0king forward to view this with y0u.

Together.

Future significant other.

Wherever y0u are n0w.

We'll meet s0meday.

weird twists

fate is a mystery. that watching it unravel is one of life's little pleasures.

all that we can do is tawakkal, and pray for the best, that the decision we made will be blessed and that fate will be very nice to us.

for His most precious gift to us - our mind, alongside with His guidance and iman, will be one tough sword and shield, come what may.

karma will get to you, whether you want it or not, whether you like it or not. since life is simple. treat people the way you want to be treated. seek His blessings for there are countless.

love while you can. care while you're able to.

with all your heart and soul.

since fate can be changed. when you want it with all your heart and work it.

for He is the one Who Listens.

ya Rabb, may You grant me the strength to get over this disappointment.

Betrayal

Betrayal is never pretty.

Grateful that i'm n0t living a lie.

Que sera sera.

P/s: fo0d ab0ve d0esn't betray. Which is go0d. :-P