the disastrous end of what was a good beginning

current y! status : it won't hurt if it wasn't pure
thinking of : the load of piles behind me

this is gonna be the last time i'll post my entry at number xx, ayer keroh using the phone number 23xxxx2. i won't live here ever again.

the 6 of us never had a clue that this will be our ending. never thought i'd end up here only with zura by my side. it was just so sad thinking of how we used to be so hated by other collegians of the extreme noise we made. how laser-mouthed all 6 of us were. how we just don't care about other people as long as we have each other. kenangan hanya boleh dikenang, takkan mungkin diulang.

you guys used to have a very special place here but, only for a mere mistake we were all separated.

to farrah : i knew you had no choice. she did make you cry but it wasn't right to punish her like that. forgive me for understanding you.

to sha : what goes up must go down. i guess now you know what you did to me felt. be a good wife to him cause that's the only thing i knew you're good at (other than tell-tale)

to bada : this one whole year is not enough to know you. i am glad i didn't. your selfishness caused you, us. just don't do that to your future friends, cause they might not be as patient as her.

to awei : what we had were utter heaven. i never had that kind of feeling till we lived together. and i never experienced hell like when you left me. thank you for leaving. cause i understand what true meaning of friendship was.

to zura : what we've got now is only each other. you taught me so much. we've been through so much. though it was only 2 years, i felt like i've known you a lifetime. looking forward to see you again. cause we're friends, FOR LIFE!

to the girls with boyfriends : you guys would be a lot better when you're out of the house and leave the 2 alone. see what happen when you interfere with them? you hurt yourselves.

i am desperate for a job now. i just want to make money now that i'm really free from any commitment for the next 3 months and a half. the interview i went to was a good expose though i couldn't commit as i'm a commitment-phobe (according to a close source =P). the job required me to sacrifice my chance to go for a degree though the money i'm gonna make is VERY tempting. the odd-working hours screwed me too. i gave up on 3 offers already. =(

somebody asked me to learn to cook during this looonng period. yea, i'm gonna do that. coz i'm gonna get married before you =P haha.

there are certain types of people that you'd want to meet even you've only known them for a short time. there are also the kind of people that even u've known them for a lifetime, you may never want to take the trouble to see them in person, though you may have many chances.

and suddenly, i felt sad.