uploading......

i wonder, where do i stand? sometimes in the path of others, sometimes at the back of someone's head, but most of the time, stuck in the world of oblivion.

i'm not mad.though i would like to scream right now.

i'm not okay.as i couldn't focus on anything else.

i'm not distressed.because i still can laugh my heart out.

i'm not fragile.i may trip and fall, but i wouldn't break that easily.

i couldn't put these into a proper speech, because it'll be raining tremendously while delivering it.

tak marah,
tak kisah,
tak pedih,
tak sedih.
cuma hiba.
bila hiba,
tak nangis.
tak meraung.
tak mengongoi.
hiba bila hati tak sampai.
hiba bila masih meletak harapan.
hiba bila jiwa kaku.
hiba bila logik memberontak.
hiba bila perasaan membelakangkan segalanya.
hiba bila naluri menuntut hak.


haven't it occured to you that after all these years, your happiness do mean something to me? even when it hurts me.

i still try to find my place in the diary of jane.