people DO change

i first caught glimpse of her when i was a kid. i felt pitiful of what she had gone through and secretly thought, she is very pretty. but we never knew each other personally.

as days went by, i met a friend who was her close friend in school. the way she talked about her, i felt i've known her a lifetime. seeing their pictures, innocent girls with hijab. i admired her.

i never heard anything about her after that. then recently, i read in the papers that she already got married. alhamdulillah, at such a young age she took a major decision that will change her life.

then, i saw her on a magazine. i just couldn't believe my eyes. is this the same girl that my friend had been telling me about aeons ago? is this the same girl that i pitied when i was a kid? is this the same girl that i secretly admired?

painfully, yes. she was without hijab. she married a musician. if i were to remember again what my friend told me about her, the girl back then wouldn't dream of being the woman she is now.

but then, who am i to judge? i am no one. i also do change, in many ways or others that might have hurt people.

i'm just disappointed.