time

he told me this:

" i don't regret that it ended. i regret the precious time. "

indeed.

i used to be in that position too, where the ending was he married someone else. but the fact that we never really hit it off kinda saved me as we're still very good friends. i was in a special kind of a relationship with him for so long that i forgot how it was without him. i am so proud to say that what i am today is his grooming (the sarcastic trait included!). talk about peer pressure and influence, lol. i don't regret the time since it matures me, it made me feel safe to make choices, to have my own sweet time to choose, and most importantly, it made me grow, to open up, be hurt again and again, only to rise stronger everytime. i can never repay you enough for all the hurts and pain i've caused you, but at least i know you're proud of the way i turned out to be, your protege, kahkahkah. his quote, rephrased by lifeh0use:

" i tried my best to be guarded, i'm an open book instead. "

well-said. hahahaha!

on another note, i listened to this argument on the radio;

" how long do you think will someone be ready for a new relationship after a breakup? "

there were quite a bunch of responses but this one was funny and calculative even:

" for each number of year spent in the relationship times by 3 months. so, if you're in a relationship for 2 years, you shall be ready to hop on the dating game again in 6 months "

LOLOL.

it is true that it depends on the person itself. as for me, life must go on. at one point, i stopped caring and just don't give a damn. love comes knocking anytime it pleases. so, it rather boils down to whether you could differentiate whether it was love or lust or just plain rebound. and yea, i've never been in any long-term ships, so i can talk motivating things like this when i dunno crap. but i think, someone new might help, a lot in fact, if you really wanna move on and not mope and cry all day.

i didn't blame her. maybe she was just trying hard to move on, even when it was barely a month. and i think girls have narrowed their choices to those who gave them the most attention, like the way rihanna sang, that girls need to feel that they're the only girl in the world. but then, the war is not yet lost. what might be one's glass, might be another's gem. she wasn't even a friend of mine, but i just found out that she and her new bf are both friends with my friend in fb. it's twisted and amusing at the same time.

only time will tell. distance and time, i will be waiting. =)