p.i.t.a.

current y! status: s.i.c. with a k
thinking of: skipping class tomorrow

i read 2 of my friend's blogs and a similarity struck me. that i wasn't the only one feeling a bit down these days,

even when i wasn't mad with fazik anymore and can speak his gf's name clearly in front of him,

when i saw a lot of salleh than i could ask for,

when i saw a lot of potential to trust in others especially in pijal after 2 blind years, hehe,

when i have miserable thoughts of the seas,

when i thought about the time when i was blamed, when it was wrong to be single,

when it doesn't hurt anymore being alone,

coz being immortal isn't always about the ability to escape death and live forever. it is rather the ability to overcome what may, the strength to face the world, even when you have no one by your side, no one to protect you as you have the strongest wall to catch you when you fall, as soft that you realize you fell but because of the barrier you created, you come back up again stronger than ever. nothing can hurt you except death.

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dear afan,

you made me realize why you had the kind of face when i first saw you. i understand the situation as best as i could, though you being through it took tremendous courage and feat. i'm glad our paths crossed. thanks for letting me know that first impression carried so much of what you are.

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i didn't lie. i'm sorry i had to be the first after a few thoughts. not other numbers. coz the way i spelled my name here meant number one in german. coz i couldn't have it any other way.